ATC WIP with watercolors.

A little WIP for Mechacon.

A little WIP for Mechacon.

Heidi (@electricabyss) and I presented a variation of this at Hamacon, minus the uh, actual Powerpoint, since the room we were given didn’t have a projector or screen.  Instead, we did hands on demos!  Yay for last minute flexibility.

I’m not sure if you’ve have noticed, but I’ve definitely pulled back on posting to sites like Tumblr and Twitter, and I haven’t been posting as much art as I used to. I also haven’t been keeping up with replies, Asks, or emails, and I apologize for that. It’s not that I’ve dropped off the face of the earth, or that I’m intentionally ignoring people. I’m emotionally fatigued.

By doing so many conventions this year, I’ve overwhelmed myself, and I’m doing my best just to stay afloat. I had really hoped that after last year’s Mechacon and AWA, I’d figured out how to make a profit at most conventions, and since my freelance work had dried up, I wanted to find another source of art based income. Unfortunately, conventions were a bad choice in that regard. There are some good ones, ones where I make a profit, but I’ve made a lot of missteps as well. One of my personal obligations as an artist is to share what I’ve learned with other artists. That includes writing about conventions that were flops, and these are blog posts that I find extremely taxing to write. I try not to fall too far behind, but since I have a lot on my plate between working on 7” Kara, a long term paying illustration gig, making new stock and restocking old stock,  conventions, and subsequent commissions, I’m having a really hard time keeping up with things online.

This isn’t a sustainable option for me, and after this convention year is over, I’m going to make a lot of changes with how I do business, but for now, I’m just trying to tough things out. I’m handling this the way I always handled finals- focus on what I absolutely have to do and shut everything else out.  Of course, finals crunch tended to be for just a couple weeks, this has been ongoing since MoCCA-fest in April.

I just wanted to let you guys know, so if I’m delayed in responses, you know I’m not being rude. I’m having some difficulty keeping my anxiety in check (it’s always harder when I’m emotionally worn out, and conventions wear me out), and its started to flare up even with positive messages. I’ve had some really negative experiences at conventions lately, and I can’t help but expect some form of fall out, and that’s coloring my perception of my online life right now.

Emotionally, this fugue I’m in is the equivalent of a cold- I’m ok, I will be ok, and I just need some rest.  Things probably won’t change a whole lot from how they’ve been the past couple months- there’ll be days when I’m feeling great and can do a lot, there’ll be days I don’t have the energy.  This happens to hit a couple of my weak spots- I’m ADHD so I don’t switch tasks well (I tend to forget things if I switch tasks) and I have anxiety issues, so I fret about trying to juggle things.

I’m sharing this here for two reasons- 1. If you can learn from it, I hope you do, and 2. So people don’t think I’m rude.

I also wanted to let you guys know how much I really appreciate your support and friendship, and I promise that when I’m able to fully come back, I’ll come back with a lot of exciting things to share with you.

Here’s the final version of the little Sailor Scout print I posted the other night.  Not a whole lot of tweaking, just added shadows, my logo, and adjusted the sparkle level a little bit.  Since it’s a special con for me, I’ll be debuting this at Mechacon this year.

Here’s the final version of the little Sailor Scout print I posted the other night.  Not a whole lot of tweaking, just added shadows, my logo, and adjusted the sparkle level a little bit.  Since it’s a special con for me, I’ll be debuting this at Mechacon this year.

My secret project is almost complete!  I’m launching several new big button designs by Mechacon, and I’ve got some goodies coming in the mail that will help make these complete.  I’m really excited to debut these.  I’ve been really into cute but sassy wearables lately, it’s like a little bit of power armor, especially since I tend to get creeped on a lot at conventions. 

My secret project is almost complete!  I’m launching several new big button designs by Mechacon, and I’ve got some goodies coming in the mail that will help make these complete.  I’m really excited to debut these.  I’ve been really into cute but sassy wearables lately, it’s like a little bit of power armor, especially since I tend to get creeped on a lot at conventions. 

I just realized, at this very moment, that glow in the dark glitter is something I need in my life.

Different sort of sailor outfit.

Different sort of sailor outfit.

Just a little process from Chapter 5.

Here’s a couple versions of a print I’m working on of the inner senshi (plus Chibi Moon) as kids.  I’m torn between the top (sans shoujo) and the bottom (avec shoujo) and could use some input as to which to go with for Mechacon.  I can also toggle the amount of shoujo sparkle included, like keep the border sparkle but loose the sparkle on the girls.  Just let me know V1 (no sparkle) V2 (all sparkle) or ‘nix the sparkle on the girls’.

Thanks guys!